My Point Of View

As a person who has had her husband deployed for all of 2009 thus far, I can witness first hand how hard it is. You don't really realize just how tough it is until you experience it for yourself. I never imagined it would be this life changing!

I can only speak from a single woman's point of view on having a husband deployed to the Middle East. By single I mean having no kids, family or friends around. During 75% of this employment it has just been me and my Maltese dog. Thanks to technology I've had my online friends and I can keep in touch with family and friends far away.

I know for me, my husband is my best friend and I am used to it just being me and him against the world. When he left, it was just me, alone against the world - at least that's how I felt. During this deployment, I've had feelings, emotions and sicknesses that I've NEVER had ever in my life. I've experienced everything from an anxiety attack (where I had to go to the ER) to feeling suicidal (on many occasions) to feeling sick (nausea, heartburn, headache, lightheaded) every single day to being anti-social (not wanting to talk to or be around anyone) and more! Deployment is no joke!

There's a LOT more after this intro..... Writing this all out really made me feel good. It's good to let things out, especially when they've been bottled up for so long.